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Hey.

2
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Hey.

3
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What's that?

4
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Dinner. I thought I'd cook tonight.

5
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How long are you guys
gonna stay mad at me for?

6
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I'll get it.

7
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Hi, I'm Detective Mason.

8
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Your parents home?

9
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Thank you.

10
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Do you know why I'm here?

11
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- No.
- I don't. No.

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You both know Ryan Holder.

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Since college.

14
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Forever.

15
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Well, two days ago,

16
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his girlfriend, Mindy Stewart,
reported him missing.

17
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Missing?

18
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She hadn't heard from him in 12 hours.
She said that wasn't usual.

19
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Then he, missed a dinner
date they had planned.

20
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When was the last time
either of you saw Mr. Holder?

21
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Um...

22
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Yeah, I saw him... It was five days ago.

23
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- Where did you see him?
- I saw him at his apartment.

24
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- How'd he seem?
- He seemed totally fine.

25
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Nothing out of the ordinary?

26
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No, I didn't... I didn't notice anything.

27
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And you?
When was the last time you saw Mr. Holder?

28
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Yeah, I... I saw him three days ago.

29
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Where?

30
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At the Village Tap. It's a bar.

31
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Yeah, we actually have CCTV footage
of the two of you there.

32
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Well...

33
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It appears to be the last place
that anyone saw or heard from Mr. Holder.

34
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How'd he seem that night?

35
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Well, to be honest...

36
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not great.

37
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What makes you say that?

38
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The main thing, I noticed
he was drinking a lot that evening.

39
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Is that notable?

40
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Yeah. He's been sober since high school.

41
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Never seen him drink.

42
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Where'd you two go after the bar?

43
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I came home, and...

44
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God, I don't know where he went.

45
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Well, thank you very much.

46
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If you think of anything else,
my cell's on the back.

47
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Thank you.

48
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I'll see myself out.

49
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Will you come upstairs?

50
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This is why I went to Ryan.

51
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Where did you find this?

52
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I followed you to the storage unit.

53
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And I took one to Ryan to see
if he could tell me what it was.

54
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It's not what you think.

55
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This is an experimental compound
designed to shut down

56
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certain regions in the prefrontal cortex.

57
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For what purpose?

58
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So that I can observe macroscopic objects
while they're in superposition.

59
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Ryan built it for me.

60
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Why didn't he tell me?

61
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He's under an NDA.
Now, why didn't you confront me with it?

62
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'Cause I feel like we've become strangers,
and I hate it.

63
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And I'm scared.

64
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Are you using it?

65
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Don't lie to me.

66
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Yes.

67
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Is it affecting you?

68
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Well, the side effects are pretty intense.

69
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I want you to stop.

70
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Okay.

71
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- Can you stop?
- Yes.

72
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I will.

73
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And what's in the storage unit?

74
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A lot of stuff from...

75
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Just for my project.

76
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Well, it feels like you were hiding it.

77
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Because I was.

78
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I guess I felt guilty of wanting more,
doing more.

79
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So, yeah.

80
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Are you really sure
that we need to do this?

81
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I think it's a waste of two ampoules.

82
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A waste of a-an entire day.

83
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Listen, I know.

84
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But in all our testing,
the drug was found to be habit forming,

85
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and it was never evaluated
under this level of continuous use.

86
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We've been living like this...
In fight or flight for 29 days.

87
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We really need a break.

88
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We need something completely different.

89
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- Doctor's orders.
- Okay.

90
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Everybody gather around me,

91
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and let's get into our horseshoe
like we practiced.

92
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Okay. Who knows why we're here?

93
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Look.

94
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Now, do you remember what
we celebrate during cold-fusion week?

95
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When the first fusion reactor went online.

96
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Yes. Okay, are you ready to go inside?

97
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- Yes!
- Okay, follow me.

98
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Where have you brought us?

99
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I'm not sure.

100
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I didn't even describe the world.

101
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Focused on concepts I thought
would make a world worth experiencing.

102
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Such as?

103
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People agreeing on basic facts,

104
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technology that doesn't
destroy the environment or humanity.

105
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Mostly, I wrote about empathy.

106
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Hi.

107
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Two hot chocolates, please.

108
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- Thank you.
- Thank you.

109
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So, you wrote about the people,
not the things.

110
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Life's about who you share it with, right?

111
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Is it good?

112
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Yeah.

113
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I think the cup is edible.

114
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- It's good, right?
- Yeah.

115
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You got it!

116
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It's called the Spire.

117
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Top of the Obama Building.
Best in the city.

118
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My friend's the manager.

119
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Tell her Sid sent you.

120
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Thank you.

121
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- I'm loving this Chicago.
- Yeah.

122
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Wait, what? Are we leaving?

123
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I'm leaving.

124
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It's a surprise. Meet me in two hours?

125
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Okay. Um, where?

126
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How about that restaurant?

127
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Okay.

128
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Good?

129
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Cool.

130
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Sorry. Bye.

131
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- Another one?
- Yeah.

132
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No, I wanna do it. I'm gonna do it.

133
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No, it's gonna be great.
It's gonna be great.

134
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- Hey. Hi.
- Hi.

135
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- Would you mind taking our photo?
- Sure.

136
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Thanks.

137
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- Just that little button right there.
- Yeah.

138
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Is, Is there a special occasion?

139
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Yeah, it's our anniversary.

140
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- Yay.
- Hope that's okay.

141
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- You guys both look very happy.
- Thank you.

142
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You and your partner too.

143
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Um, I took a photo of you two.

144
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- He does this.
- Sorry.

145
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You were just too cute not to.

146
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How long you been together?

147
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Sorry?

148
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Yeah, not... not too long.

149
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Thank you.

150
00:14:01,633 --> 00:14:03,302
Wow.

151
00:14:03,969 --> 00:14:05,344
It's amazing.

152
00:14:05,345 --> 00:14:07,514
I feel extremely underdressed.

153
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That's for you.

154
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Okay.

155
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Guess I'll be right back.

156
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Hot. Very hot.

157
00:14:46,678 --> 00:14:50,516
Yeah, it's amazing what
a wash of the face can do.

158
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- Yeah.
- Cheers.

159
00:15:01,610 --> 00:15:03,236
I got something for you.

160
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Close your eyes.

161
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All right. Open.

162
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Where?

163
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I saw them in a storefront in a bodega
as I was wandering around.

164
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- You remembered.
- Yeah.

165
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Thank you.

166
00:15:28,887 --> 00:15:31,514
Yeah.

167
00:15:31,515 --> 00:15:33,642
- You... You did?
- I had to.

168
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- And?
- You're not a scientist.

169
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Wha... What am I?

170
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You sell insurance.

171
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That... That is boring.

172
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I also looked me up.

173
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The Amanda Lucas of this world
went missing two years ago.

174
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Like me, she was born in Seattle,

175
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which is now part
of a country called Cascadia.

176
00:16:03,130 --> 00:16:07,176
Like me, she grew up mostly in São Paulo
and moved to Chicago when she was 17.

177
00:16:07,885 --> 00:16:09,802
She has multiple citizenships.

178
00:16:09,803 --> 00:16:15,184
Unlike me, her parents are gone
and she never had a brother.

179
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Wow.

180
00:16:17,853 --> 00:16:19,188
So it's...

181
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it's perfect.

182
00:16:28,238 --> 00:16:33,535
Using facial recognition
and a retinal scan,

183
00:16:35,329 --> 00:16:38,247
I was able to get a new passport
in ten minutes.

184
00:16:39,541 --> 00:16:41,793
This Amanda has really good credit.

185
00:16:42,336 --> 00:16:44,880
All right,
what the fuck are you talking about?

186
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I'm staying.

187
00:16:52,387 --> 00:16:54,056
I can't keep doing this.

188
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I think you see it too.

189
00:16:59,895 --> 00:17:04,733
You have a home you're looking for,
but I don't have that.

190
00:17:05,526 --> 00:17:07,486
I can't go back to my world.

191
00:17:08,862 --> 00:17:13,867
I'm completely alone except for you.

192
00:17:15,577 --> 00:17:17,538
And you're not even my Jason.

193
00:17:19,623 --> 00:17:21,333
So you're abandoning me?

194
00:17:22,709 --> 00:17:23,877
Jason.

195
00:17:29,299 --> 00:17:30,884
I want you to stay.

196
00:17:42,896 --> 00:17:44,064
Yeah.

197
00:17:52,114 --> 00:17:53,698
I mean,

198
00:17:53,699 --> 00:17:57,285
I know that there
are countless worlds with Jasons

199
00:17:57,286 --> 00:18:00,539
that are much smarter than me
that would love to stay.

200
00:18:03,292 --> 00:18:08,130
And I'm sorry that I...
I just can't be one of them.

201
00:18:10,465 --> 00:18:12,134
As much as...

202
00:18:28,192 --> 00:18:31,152
At least I...
I should leave you some ampoules.

203
00:18:31,153 --> 00:18:32,695
- Why?
- Why?

204
00:18:32,696 --> 00:18:35,115
We don't know that this is gonna work.

205
00:18:36,200 --> 00:18:37,993
No world can be perfect,

206
00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:44,124
but we have to choose
to make our life as great as it can be.

207
00:18:48,504 --> 00:18:50,755
What are you gonna do?
Where are you gonna go?

208
00:18:50,756 --> 00:18:52,424
Move back to Seattle,

209
00:18:52,966 --> 00:18:54,968
where no one knows Amanda Lucas anymore.

210
00:18:55,969 --> 00:18:57,178
Start over.

211
00:18:57,179 --> 00:18:59,765
Thought it all through.
Are you sure about it?

212
00:19:02,184 --> 00:19:05,229
If consciousness
makes our connection to reality,

213
00:19:06,355 --> 00:19:08,814
then it's not only the consciousness
of the person

214
00:19:08,815 --> 00:19:10,609
who opens the door that matters.

215
00:19:11,443 --> 00:19:13,070
It's both our minds.

216
00:19:13,946 --> 00:19:17,366
What if I'm the thing that is keeping you
from connecting to your world,

217
00:19:17,908 --> 00:19:19,368
from getting back to them?

218
00:19:23,914 --> 00:19:25,916
You're amazing.

219
00:19:28,085 --> 00:19:29,669
And I'm sorry. It was me.

220
00:19:29,670 --> 00:19:32,296
- I pulled... I pulled you into this. I...
- No. No.

221
00:19:32,297 --> 00:19:33,715
None of that.

222
00:19:34,842 --> 00:19:36,093
No regrets.

223
00:19:40,097 --> 00:19:41,640
No regrets.

224
00:20:26,602 --> 00:20:27,978
I hope you find them.

225
00:20:29,563 --> 00:20:30,606
Thank you.

226
00:23:25,322 --> 00:23:27,032
- <i>Hello?</i>
- Hi.

227
00:23:27,950 --> 00:23:28,951
<i>Hi.</i>

228
00:23:30,077 --> 00:23:31,662
<i>What number are you calling from?</i>

229
00:23:33,330 --> 00:23:35,081
My ph... my phone died.

230
00:23:35,082 --> 00:23:40,127
I-I just borrowed a phone
from someone here.

231
00:23:40,128 --> 00:23:41,630
<i>Is everything okay?</i>

232
00:23:44,216 --> 00:23:49,095
Yeah, I was just calling
to see how your morning's going.

233
00:23:49,096 --> 00:23:52,224
Do you mean since I saw you an hour ago?

234
00:23:53,767 --> 00:23:55,060
Is everything okay?

235
00:23:56,478 --> 00:23:58,647
Yeah. Yeah.

236
00:24:00,858 --> 00:24:02,693
Just hit me that, um,

237
00:24:04,862 --> 00:24:07,573
I take so many moments
with you for granted.

238
00:24:10,742 --> 00:24:13,744
I get up in the morning,
I go about my day,

239
00:24:13,745 --> 00:24:16,999
but it just hit me with...

240
00:24:18,125 --> 00:24:21,211
with clarity that I just love you so much.

241
00:24:23,338 --> 00:24:25,841
And I just thought
I'd better tell you because...

242
00:24:28,260 --> 00:24:30,928
you just never know, you know?

243
00:24:30,929 --> 00:24:33,848
<i>How about I cancel our plans for tonight,</i>

244
00:24:33,849 --> 00:24:38,187
and I'll wear my sexiest sweatpants?

245
00:24:45,652 --> 00:24:48,447
I would really love that.

246
00:24:49,615 --> 00:24:53,659
Look, I got to go 'cause this, um,

247
00:24:53,660 --> 00:24:55,954
Zoom with the investors is about to start.

248
00:24:57,122 --> 00:24:58,874
- Yeah. Okay.
- <i>Okay.</i>

249
00:24:59,708 --> 00:25:01,042
I love you, sweetheart.

250
00:25:01,043 --> 00:25:02,586
I'll see you tonight.

251
00:27:58,220 --> 00:27:59,471
Dad?

252
00:28:00,222 --> 00:28:01,556
Charlie?

253
00:28:01,557 --> 00:28:03,433
No. It's your other son.

254
00:28:06,895 --> 00:28:08,230
What are you doing?

255
00:28:12,776 --> 00:28:14,236
I couldn't sleep.

256
00:28:16,113 --> 00:28:19,323
So you got dressed in all black
and put your shoes on

257
00:28:19,324 --> 00:28:21,368
so you could stand
around your own kitchen?

258
00:28:22,077 --> 00:28:23,996
Well, I thought a walk might help.

259
00:28:26,039 --> 00:28:28,125
Well, don't let me keep you.

260
00:28:33,547 --> 00:28:35,174
I love you, kiddo.

261
00:28:40,095 --> 00:28:41,263
What?

262
00:28:43,348 --> 00:28:44,975
What's the matter?

263
00:28:45,517 --> 00:28:48,270
I know how much of a massive
disappointment I am to you.

264
00:28:50,105 --> 00:28:51,106
No.

265
00:28:52,733 --> 00:28:55,068
No, I... I cou... I... I could never.

266
00:28:55,903 --> 00:28:57,445
- What? What are you doing?
- Hey.

267
00:28:57,446 --> 00:28:58,989
What's... What's the matter?

268
00:29:02,034 --> 00:29:03,202
Talk to me.

269
00:29:04,870 --> 00:29:07,789
What's going on with you?

270
00:29:10,083 --> 00:29:12,169
Dad, it's almost the anniversary.

271
00:29:13,962 --> 00:29:18,425
Keep thinking about Holly
and how unfair it all is.

272
00:29:21,053 --> 00:29:22,678
She could have made something of herself.

273
00:29:22,679 --> 00:29:24,847
Meanwhile,
my stupid ass is just failing trig.

274
00:29:24,848 --> 00:29:27,391
Hey.

275
00:29:27,392 --> 00:29:29,102
Max.

276
00:29:32,356 --> 00:29:33,524
Max.

277
00:29:37,277 --> 00:29:42,365
Life is not like that.

278
00:29:42,366 --> 00:29:46,036
- It's complicated. It's...
- That girl is dead.

279
00:29:47,746 --> 00:29:49,747
I have her heart. I live and she doesn't.

280
00:29:49,748 --> 00:29:53,710
Do you really think I need to be told
that life is fucking complicated?

281
00:29:54,795 --> 00:29:55,838
No.

282
00:29:57,673 --> 00:29:58,757
Fuck off.

283
00:30:00,551 --> 00:30:01,718
Max.

284
00:30:22,322 --> 00:30:24,324
How's your week been?

285
00:30:26,034 --> 00:30:28,704
Well,

286
00:30:30,539 --> 00:30:32,749
Daniela went behind my back,

287
00:30:33,959 --> 00:30:37,796
and she spoke to a good friend of mine
about me and about my work.

288
00:30:38,505 --> 00:30:41,300
About things that she really
should have come to me with.

289
00:30:42,301 --> 00:30:46,013
So I'm thinking about
just packing up and leaving.

290
00:30:46,763 --> 00:30:48,890
Do you think that
will solve your problems?

291
00:30:48,891 --> 00:30:51,100
Y... Y... Why do you have a problem

292
00:30:51,101 --> 00:30:53,853
with me removing myself
from a bad situation?

293
00:30:53,854 --> 00:30:55,646
I don't have a problem with that.

294
00:30:55,647 --> 00:31:00,527
But do you think it's possible that you
are actually running away from yourself,

295
00:31:01,570 --> 00:31:02,737
from who you really are?

296
00:31:04,615 --> 00:31:08,243
You know, I don't know a thing about you.

297
00:31:08,827 --> 00:31:10,119
We're not here to talk about me.

298
00:31:10,120 --> 00:31:12,205
Yeah, but how am I supposed to trust you?

299
00:31:12,206 --> 00:31:14,708
Come on, just one thing.

300
00:31:15,334 --> 00:31:16,710
Just one.

301
00:31:17,586 --> 00:31:18,711
No? Okay.

302
00:31:18,712 --> 00:31:21,298
Well, how about I tell you
something about yourself?

303
00:31:21,965 --> 00:31:24,717
Like, you have a sweet tooth.

304
00:31:24,718 --> 00:31:26,928
I keep candy on my desk.

305
00:31:26,929 --> 00:31:28,387
That's not a state secret.

306
00:31:28,388 --> 00:31:32,183
Yeah, but it says
that you like to be liked,

307
00:31:32,184 --> 00:31:34,019
that you're a nice person.

308
00:31:34,728 --> 00:31:38,815
And I think that psychology
most likely wasn't your first love.

309
00:31:39,608 --> 00:31:41,984
You're right. I had many loves.

310
00:31:41,985 --> 00:31:44,612
And you seem to me
to be the kind of person

311
00:31:44,613 --> 00:31:49,743
that tends to give up a lot of yourself
to help others, particularly men.

312
00:31:50,744 --> 00:31:54,205
And, no, no, no, you would never
walk away from a bad situation.

313
00:31:54,206 --> 00:31:58,752
In fact, I think that you had a parent
that needed to be cared for.

314
00:31:59,336 --> 00:32:00,336
Yeah.

315
00:32:00,337 --> 00:32:04,882
She needed you so much that that
is exactly the reason why you became

316
00:32:04,883 --> 00:32:08,762
the kind of person that needs to rescue
other people instead of helping yourself.

317
00:32:16,937 --> 00:32:18,522
I'd like you to leave.

318
00:32:24,027 --> 00:32:25,070
Now.

319
00:32:25,863 --> 00:32:26,864
Yeah.

320
00:32:41,044 --> 00:32:43,462
Hi, Jason. Sorry to bother you.

321
00:32:43,463 --> 00:32:46,133
I just had a couple questions,
happened to be in the neighborhood.

322
00:32:47,176 --> 00:32:48,177
Sit.

323
00:32:54,057 --> 00:32:56,852
We finally looked up Ryan Holder's
cell phone records.

324
00:32:57,603 --> 00:33:01,565
The last location before it went offline
was an industrial area in South Chicago.

325
00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:04,526
Okay.

326
00:33:05,819 --> 00:33:09,740
It appears he went there straight after
having drinks with you at the Village Tap.

327
00:33:10,365 --> 00:33:11,366
Right.

328
00:33:12,659 --> 00:33:15,369
Any idea what he might have
been doing in that part of town

329
00:33:15,370 --> 00:33:17,372
- in the middle of the night?
- No.

330
00:33:18,749 --> 00:33:20,209
You didn't go there with him?

331
00:33:21,293 --> 00:33:22,419
No.

332
00:33:23,337 --> 00:33:25,588
He didn't tell you
what he was doing out there?

333
00:33:25,589 --> 00:33:26,965
No.

334
00:33:28,425 --> 00:33:29,551
Okay.

335
00:33:33,472 --> 00:33:34,806
Okay.

336
00:33:42,564 --> 00:33:46,275
You know, there's not much in the way
of CCTV coverage in that part of town.

337
00:33:46,276 --> 00:33:50,197
But if I find anything interesting,
I'll be in touch.

338
00:34:35,158 --> 00:34:37,286
You actually said, "Fuck you, I quit?"

339
00:34:38,203 --> 00:34:40,873
- Life's too short.
- All right. All right.

340
00:34:41,581 --> 00:34:43,333
Hey, what was your boss's name?

341
00:34:44,126 --> 00:34:45,377
Alan.

342
00:34:47,087 --> 00:34:48,422
Here's to you, Alan.

343
00:34:48,964 --> 00:34:50,715
But eat a bag of dicks.

344
00:34:50,716 --> 00:34:54,802
Fuck you, Alan.

345
00:34:54,803 --> 00:34:57,138
Why? You got a asshole boss in your life?

346
00:34:57,139 --> 00:34:59,725
Yeah.

347
00:35:01,185 --> 00:35:02,477
You're looking at him.

348
00:35:04,605 --> 00:35:07,773
So, wait, wha... what is this?
What... What is it that you do exactly?

349
00:35:07,774 --> 00:35:10,444
I own a garage. Loyalty Motors.
You probably heard of us.

350
00:35:11,069 --> 00:35:12,279
No?

351
00:35:13,030 --> 00:35:15,823
Service all the fancy hipsters
over in Logan Square.

352
00:35:15,824 --> 00:35:19,119
Did you always wanna own a garage?

353
00:35:19,745 --> 00:35:21,204
Actually,
if things had gone a little different,

354
00:35:21,205 --> 00:35:23,582
I might've ended up at UChicago with you.

355
00:35:24,708 --> 00:35:26,210
No shit.

356
00:35:27,503 --> 00:35:29,003
I know I don't look like it,

357
00:35:29,004 --> 00:35:31,507
but I was a pretty smart motherfucker
back in the day.

358
00:35:32,299 --> 00:35:34,676
I had a full academic scholarship
at UChicago.

359
00:35:35,719 --> 00:35:37,054
What happened?

360
00:35:37,763 --> 00:35:40,807
My dumbass got a DUI
the summer after my senior year.

361
00:35:43,018 --> 00:35:44,560
Was at a party for my buddy.

362
00:35:44,561 --> 00:35:48,106
We were wasted,
and so we flipped a coin and I lost.

363
00:35:48,857 --> 00:35:52,903
Then I drove and, we hit a
checkpoint on the way home.

364
00:35:56,448 --> 00:35:58,032
Do you ever wonder...

365
00:35:58,033 --> 00:35:59,326
All the fucking time.

366
00:36:00,452 --> 00:36:02,036
Another round, boys?

367
00:36:02,037 --> 00:36:04,497
We probably should.

368
00:36:04,498 --> 00:36:06,249
I'm gonna have a whiskey.
You want a whiskey?

369
00:36:06,250 --> 00:36:07,501
Yeah.

370
00:36:08,794 --> 00:36:10,002
Thanks.

371
00:36:10,003 --> 00:36:12,464
You ever get the feeling
when you meet someone,

372
00:36:13,632 --> 00:36:15,509
you're sure you've met them before?

373
00:36:16,593 --> 00:36:17,928
- Yeah.
- Yeah?

374
00:36:19,388 --> 00:36:20,639
There you go, lads.

375
00:36:21,139 --> 00:36:22,474
- Thanks.
- Yeah.

376
00:39:14,229 --> 00:39:18,025
<i>The first time I see you
is at the garden party.</i>

377
00:39:20,110 --> 00:39:21,986
<i>And when your eyes meet mine,</i>

378
00:39:21,987 --> 00:39:28,784
<i>it feels like some piece of machinery
has just seized inside of my chest,</i>

379
00:39:28,785 --> 00:39:30,329
<i>like worlds colliding.</i>

380
00:39:32,372 --> 00:39:35,333
<i>I've always known,
on a purely intellectual level,</i>

381
00:39:35,334 --> 00:39:37,920
<i>that human separateness is an illusion.</i>

382
00:39:38,504 --> 00:39:40,129
<i>We're all made of the same thing:</i>

383
00:39:40,130 --> 00:39:44,300
<i>Blown-out pieces of matter
formed in the fires of dead stars.</i>

384
00:39:44,301 --> 00:39:46,928
<i>I've just never felt
that knowledge in my bones</i>

385
00:39:46,929 --> 00:39:49,264
<i>until this moment here with you.</i>

386
00:39:51,725 --> 00:39:54,101
<i>I only remember pieces of what was said,</i>

387
00:39:54,102 --> 00:39:58,189
<i>how you laughed,
how the wine stained your lips.</i>

388
00:39:58,190 --> 00:39:59,899
<i>And then you say to me,</i>

389
00:39:59,900 --> 00:40:02,652
<i>"I have a friend whose gallery
opening is tonight.</i>

390
00:40:02,653 --> 00:40:03,861
<i>Do you wanna come?"</i>

391
00:40:03,862 --> 00:40:07,491
<i>And I thought, "I'd go anywhere with you."</i>

392
00:40:23,173 --> 00:40:26,927
<i>I'm leaving a world today
where our boy made it.</i>

393
00:40:27,594 --> 00:40:29,096
<i>Where Max is alive.</i>

394
00:40:30,222 --> 00:40:33,767
<i>I almost took that Jason's life
the same way mine was taken.</i>

395
00:40:34,393 --> 00:40:36,102
<i>But I realize something.</i>

396
00:40:36,103 --> 00:40:40,607
<i>I need my life and my family,
no one else's.</i>

397
00:40:44,528 --> 00:40:45,988
"I used to think that...

398
00:40:48,323 --> 00:40:51,743
life was about reaching
some perfect destination.

399
00:40:53,412 --> 00:40:56,623
Because I hadn't reached it yet,
I felt somehow ill at ease.

400
00:40:58,542 --> 00:41:00,419
But I had seen the perfection.

401
00:41:02,171 --> 00:41:06,425
I had reached it,
and I'm starting to suspect

402
00:41:07,676 --> 00:41:14,308
that it is the imperfections of life that
amount to a different kind of perfection."

403
00:41:18,937 --> 00:41:20,606
"I just wanna be home...

404
00:41:23,358 --> 00:41:24,693
back on the journey...

405
00:41:26,111 --> 00:41:28,280
with this version of you."

406
00:43:01,623 --> 00:43:03,208
Well, how can I help you, sir?

407
00:43:05,335 --> 00:43:06,420
You know me?

408
00:43:07,671 --> 00:43:10,214
Yes, Jason, I know you.

409
00:43:10,215 --> 00:43:11,966
- Okay.
- Matt.

410
00:43:11,967 --> 00:43:14,594
What do...

411
00:43:14,595 --> 00:43:16,179
What are you drinking? What's going on?

412
00:43:16,180 --> 00:43:17,639
No, not tonight, man.

413
00:43:18,599 --> 00:43:19,850
Not tonight!

414
00:43:20,559 --> 00:43:22,519
Swung in for a hug. Okay. Thanks.

415
00:44:51,191 --> 00:44:52,234
Hey.

416
00:44:55,904 --> 00:44:58,907
Hey. Wow. That looks good. Hey.

417
00:45:00,534 --> 00:45:03,911
Sorry. Ryan finally called.

418
00:45:07,708 --> 00:45:10,460
I went and picked him up in a bar in Gary,

419
00:45:11,086 --> 00:45:12,587
and he was on a massive bender.

420
00:45:12,588 --> 00:45:13,922
Is he okay?

421
00:45:14,423 --> 00:45:17,509
Well, he's, No.

422
00:45:18,010 --> 00:45:19,595
He's in a pretty bad way.

423
00:45:22,306 --> 00:45:24,099
He's going through some stuff.

424
00:45:25,017 --> 00:45:26,101
Where is he now?

425
00:45:26,685 --> 00:45:29,688
He's at home,
sleeping it off. He's...

426
00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:32,274
Maybe he shouldn't be alone.

427
00:45:33,275 --> 00:45:36,194
I called, Mindy. She's on her way.

428
00:45:36,195 --> 00:45:37,278
Good.

429
00:45:37,279 --> 00:45:39,907
And I gotta call Detective Mason.

430
00:45:40,574 --> 00:45:42,367
Just to, you know, let her know.

431
00:45:45,204 --> 00:45:47,414
Hey, why don't you text me Mindy's number?

432
00:45:48,207 --> 00:45:50,834
- I'll check on her.
- Yeah. Yeah.

433
00:46:05,682 --> 00:46:07,850
Hi. Help you with something?

434
00:46:07,851 --> 00:46:10,812
- Yeah. I wanna buy a handgun.
- Okay.

435
00:46:11,438 --> 00:46:13,273
Don't really know
the first thing about them.

436
00:46:13,857 --> 00:46:15,817
No worries. The purpose would be?

437
00:46:17,611 --> 00:46:19,404
- Just home defense.
- Okay.

438
00:46:20,989 --> 00:46:25,118
So, we've got this Glock 23 right here.

439
00:46:25,953 --> 00:46:28,871
It's a .40 caliber.
Austrian-made, solid knockdown power.

440
00:46:28,872 --> 00:46:30,790
Now, I can get you in a subcompact version

441
00:46:30,791 --> 00:46:33,376
if you want something a little smaller
for a concealed carry permit.

442
00:46:33,377 --> 00:46:35,461
So, that would...
that would take down an intruder?

443
00:46:35,462 --> 00:46:36,879
Yeah.

444
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:38,422
Yeah, this will put 'em down.

445
00:46:38,423 --> 00:46:39,925
Won't be getting up either.

446
00:46:40,801 --> 00:46:43,261
Is that... Can I... Is it...
How many bullets does it...

447
00:46:43,262 --> 00:46:45,430
- It's rounds. Thirteen. Yeah.
- Rounds?

448
00:46:49,226 --> 00:46:50,435
You got it.

449
00:46:51,436 --> 00:46:53,354
- Yeah, what do you think?
- Yeah.

450
00:46:53,355 --> 00:46:55,731
- Well, it feels like a... a gun.
- Yeah.

451
00:46:55,732 --> 00:46:57,275
All right.
Well, I can show you a few more.

452
00:46:57,276 --> 00:47:00,653
I've got a really nice Smith & Wesson .357
if you want a revolver instead.

453
00:47:00,654 --> 00:47:03,447
No. It... That's perfect. And I'll take it.

454
00:47:03,448 --> 00:47:04,615
Yeah? Okay, great.

455
00:47:04,616 --> 00:47:06,118
Um, you got your FOID card?

456
00:47:07,661 --> 00:47:09,036
What is that?

457
00:47:09,037 --> 00:47:13,083
It's your Firearm Owners Identification
card issued by the Illinois State Police.

458
00:47:16,086 --> 00:47:17,670
And how do I get one?

459
00:47:17,671 --> 00:47:19,715
You have to apply for it.

460
00:47:22,926 --> 00:47:24,386
Okay.

461
00:47:25,512 --> 00:47:26,722
Okay.

462
00:47:27,931 --> 00:47:29,558
In the meantime,

463
00:47:31,018 --> 00:47:35,062
Have you got anything,
like pepper spray, or mace?

464
00:47:35,063 --> 00:47:37,274
- Yeah. Yeah, sure do, right over here.
- Yeah?

465
00:47:38,275 --> 00:47:42,570
I recommend the Fox Labs pepper spray.
It's got 5.3 million Scoville Heat Units.

466
00:47:42,571 --> 00:47:44,197
It's the hottest and
strongest on the market.

467
00:47:44,198 --> 00:47:46,032
- All right, great. Yeah. I'll do that.
- Yeah?

468
00:47:46,033 --> 00:47:48,702
- And can I have a look at a knife?
- Yeah, right here.

469
00:47:49,745 --> 00:47:51,872
You looking for anything
in particular, or...

470
00:47:52,539 --> 00:47:55,374
- I mean, no. This... this one?
- That's a good choice.

471
00:47:55,375 --> 00:47:58,044
This is the Spyderco Civilian.

472
00:47:58,045 --> 00:48:00,464
Designed for self-defense
and hand-to-hand combat.

473
00:48:01,048 --> 00:48:02,257
Just be careful.

474
00:48:03,258 --> 00:48:05,885
- Yeah. I'll take both.
- Okay.

475
00:48:05,886 --> 00:48:06,970
Great.

476
00:48:07,513 --> 00:48:09,473
I will ring you up right over there.

477
00:48:10,098 --> 00:48:12,099
- Appreciate your business. Yep.
- Thank you.

478
00:48:12,100 --> 00:48:13,976
- Have a good one.
- Yeah.

479
00:48:33,455 --> 00:48:35,666
Did you change your mind about the knife?

480
00:48:37,209 --> 00:48:39,710
I... I wanted to buy a handgun.

481
00:48:39,711 --> 00:48:43,297
I... I just don't really
know the first thing about them.

482
00:48:43,298 --> 00:48:46,552
Didn't we just
have this conversation?

483
00:48:48,345 --> 00:48:49,847
What are you talking about?

484
00:48:50,973 --> 00:48:52,473
We just did this.

485
00:48:52,474 --> 00:48:54,726
I showed you a Glock.
You didn't have your FOID card.

486
00:48:56,228 --> 00:48:58,938
You, You bought mace and a knife?

487
00:48:58,939 --> 00:49:01,358
No, I've never been in this store.

488
00:49:06,113 --> 00:49:10,075
Okay. Yeah. Um, do you have a twin?

489
00:49:12,828 --> 00:49:14,079
No.

490
00:49:15,581 --> 00:49:17,707
Are you saying that someone
was just in here that...

491
00:49:17,708 --> 00:49:19,751
looks a lot like me?

492
00:49:21,044 --> 00:49:22,962
Yeah. Yeah, exactly like you.

493
00:49:22,963 --> 00:49:25,007
Same clothes and
every... Well, he didn't...

494
00:49:25,924 --> 00:49:27,885
He didn't have a brace on his finger.

495
00:49:28,719 --> 00:49:30,387
How long ago was that?

496
00:49:31,138 --> 00:49:33,473
He walked out 20 seconds
before you walked in.

497
00:49:37,936 --> 00:49:39,729
Hey, do you know which direction he went?

498
00:49:39,730 --> 00:49:41,063
I didn't see.

499
00:49:41,064 --> 00:49:43,232
You wanna tell me
what the hell's going on?